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August 29, 2012

Happy Accident

I don’t know how else to explain this.
My boyfriend is my happy accident. When I first met him, I never thought that I had just met the person I’d spend my life with. I never planned on falling in love. I was actually kind of planning on the relationship crashing and burning, like all the ones before it. Getting to this place in our relationship – or any relationship, for that matter – seemed completely out of reach.
When I’d met him, I’d kind of already given up on finding someone. I was comfortable with the idea of being alone. Being alone didn’t scare me like it did other girls my age. I just thought to myself, I guess that’s just how it is for some people, and left it at that.
He changed my mind about it all. He made me rethink my entire life. He made me reevaluate my goals for myself. He taught me to see my own self worth. He showed me what it was like to live outside of the little cage of anxiety and fear I had made for myself. He gave me an entirely new way of looking at my life and seeing all of the potential I had. And it was only after I learned all of this about myself that I began to notice, really notice, the man behind it all.
He never asked for any thanks. He came in and patched up my life using what can only be described as “scraps of my former self” and helped mold me into someone I’m actually proud of becoming.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes. But it definitely would have been a lot more if it hadn’t been for him.
And to think, it all happened by accident.

I love you, darling. Come hell or high water, I’ll always be there for you, just like you’re always there for me.

August 6, 2012

I’m a list-maker.

I don’t know about the rest of you, but I love making lists. From grocery to bucket, I love them all. Tonight, I came up with a rather wonderful list, which is great because I’ve been kind of down today. This list is about my boyfriend.

I’ve been thinking a lot about him lately. I’m leaving home to go back to college in a couple weeks, and once I leave, I won’t see him again until October. He’s also on his way to joining the Air Force Reserves, so he’ll be gone for BMT and tech school for a while in the next little bit. I think I’ll miss him a lot more than he’ll miss me. You see, if it hadn’t been for him, my summer would have been beyond lonely. He and his family are the only people, aside from my own family, that I’ve spent any significant amount of time with. Granted, this is partially because I’m an extremely antisocial shut-in. But I do need human contact every now and then, which he’s always been willing to provide. He’s my best friend. I don’t tell him that enough.

Anyway, here’s that list I mentioned a million words ago.

Things That Remind Me of My Extremely Kind, Romantic, Loving, Handsome, Wonderful Boyfriend

1. Fireworks

I don’t know what is so romantic about massive explosions that light up the night sky like a WWII air raid, but for whatever reason, I always find myself with butterflies in my stomach while watching fireworks with my man.

2. Lipstick

My boyfriend is the only reason I ever wear lipstick. I normally just slap on the first lip balm I find and call it good. But when I’m trying to look extra nice for my boyfriend, I spend at least ten minutes picking out the perfect shade. Considering, he’s the only person besides me who’s allowed to touch it, I figure it’s good to keep him in mind.

3. Lilo and Stitch

During the first year or so my boyfriend and I were together, he asked me if he could borrow my copy of Lilo and Stitch. I’m pretty sure that it’s been back and forth between his house and mine at least three times. I love this movie. He loves this movie. Every time I see something from Lilo and Stitch, I think of him and wonder to myself if I ever got that DVD back…

4. Cheesy Quotes I Find on Tumblr

I seriously go guano for crap like this. I’m such a sucker for this kind of stuff, I even let grammatical and spelling errors go sometimes. I feel like every single one of these sappy little tidbits are about me and him, and I think that’s because our relationship is all kinds of freaking awesome.

5. ¬†Castiel and Dean (AKA “Destiel”) from Supernatural

Call me the biggest cheeseball on the planet if it’ll help you sleep at night, but these two are so boyfriends in my mind. Also, the two characters seem to remind me of my boyfriend and myself. Who’s who? Well, I can relate to Dean in a lot of ways (family issues, repressed emotions, protective older sibling, overwhelming responsibilities, etc.). And I feel like my boyfriend is like Cas because he and Cas share the same willingness to help the people they care about most. He’s the kind of guy that would jump in front of a bus for me, and that’s something I’ve never had before.

Well, I could go on and on with this list, but all these pictures are making the post itself entirely too massive. So, I’ll end it here. Boyfriend, if you ever read this and think I’m insane, you’re probably right. But I love you. And I think you have a handsome face. And a cute butt. I adore you. Marry me when we’re 28 and old enough to make a reasonable, logical step forward with our lives. Sound good? Okay then.